Hindsight: 19/21

What follows are the conclusive thought processes of my freshman year at Warner. While it has been nearly a month since school ended, I am only just now able to fully appreciate and articulate what I have learned and experienced over the course of the school year. Below is the clearest interpretation I could muster of an internal dialogue that took place in response to the events that occurred at WP. I am posting it for no other reason than the closure that it will bring me.

What do I know?

I know that I feel. I am an emotional person. I feel right when I trust God.

How do you know that what you feel is right?

I don’t- that isn’t the point. It doesn’t matter if what I feel is wrong or right, it matters that I feel at all.

Do you doubt Me?

No. I doubt me. I don’t think that I am good enough or strong enough to call myself Christian, to affiliate with You at all.

So what?

I may not be good enough or strong enough, but I am worth trying.

I am worth this.