Fourteen Souls

One month from today I will be at home in my queen size bed, surrounded by my family. One month from today I will have said my goodbyes and left behind all that has been my life for this past year. One month from today things will be different.

                I know that this impending paradigm shift is for the better because it signifies growth but that doesn’t make it any less harsh, and I am stuck between readiness and hesitation. While a large part of me is ready to be done with the hustle and bustle of classes I can’t help but to consider that going home means going back to what I have worked so hard to detach myself from. For the duration of my time at Warner I have been slowly learning to handle the fact that I am growing up, and that growing up may mean being away from my family.

                I miss them terribly but I have grown accustomed to the way that things are here. I am used to the constant echo of voices and music that hums through my dorm. I am used to walking everywhere that I need to go and stocking up food for the weekends. Yeah it can be frustrating- I miss seeing the stars and I struggle to find privacy, and it doesn’t rain enough. But I recognize the fact that I will never be where I am again.

                I will be reunited with the majority of my classmates next year, and roughly half are within visiting distance. The thing is that these are not my classmates, they are my life mates. We have been going through classes together sure, but we have also gone through sickness and injury, drama and hurt, long nights and belly aching laughter. These fourteen girls have changed me and there will never be a time after this year where we are put through this again.

                I suppose what I mean by all of this is thank you. Each of you has touched me over this past year, some more than others, but I am blessed to call you all my friends either way. We may all go our separate ways but I will always be here for any of you <3